Look erm...if u have some time please look here.Basically i have a real life problem.Sometime in March i met my old friend,a 15 year old called Clair,who i had known since nursery as i was walking back 4rom school in Fulham.We used 2 do everything 2gether and we knew each other really well-we loved each other as friends 4 life.I always kept in touch with her even when we broke up in year 6 and i went 2 a all boys school-we were inseperable.
So as we were walking down to Fulham Broadway Station to go home 2 wimbledon,she stopped suddenly.She started gasping and i got scared and asked her what was wrong-she fell on her knees and collapsed on2 the ground.I had been learning CPR 4 the last 4 years and i turned her over and did EVERYTHING-i checked her airway,breathing did my rescue breaths,checked 4 signs of life,did compressions etc.Nobody on the street did anything 2 help me,they just stared at me like an idiot,not even when i asked them 2 dial 999 i had 2 do it myself.I did all this 4 30 mins(although it seemed longer)and by the time i had finished blood was running down my back(i had scissors sticking in my back thru my bag-i never had time 2 take my bag off my back.i have a scar there now).Finally the ambulance came and took Clair away.They wrote down my phone number and told me 2 go home-theyd call me back.
A while after i got back home,the phone rang and i picked it up(i dont want my parents 2 know).The doctor told me that she had died from a heart defect.
I have been regularly breaking down and am also crying at this moment in time.i would just like 2 know any advice on how 2 get over this.
I hope i havent taken up an of your time